Not long ago we drove 3.5 hours to find people on the heart of God. We didn’t know anyone but we came across Sandy*. Her eyes held a depth of hopelessness and disbelief like I didn’t know existed. I have seen my share of hopelessness here but this took my breath away. Living in poverty in a flood zone with her husband and six children, her life had been one of misery. She was born to a blind father and a crippled mother, and because of this had only known financial hardship and ridicule.
No hope for the future. All of it smashed as everywhere she looked were problems and insurmountable challenges. What could we do? God has good things for her. How can we lift her out of her despair? Holy Spirit how do we partner with you here? We took her shopping! Piling up groceries, she stood crying holding on to her cart in the supermarket. We told her of God’s love and that He cares.
A few days later, we sat with her outside her home as she ran into the arms of her loving Papa. She ran into hope. She ran into her great future in Him. There was no immediate natural change to her circumstances at this point but her face shone! Jesus broke through the darkness with His hope and light.
There was a song we had on a Bill Gaither record, back in the day. It was one of my favorites and I would sing it over and over.
I’m just a child! My life is still before me
I just can’t wait, to see what God has for me,
But I know that I will trust Him
And I’ll wait to see what life will bring for me.
When I thought about the words, often a feeling of absolute exhilaration would rush over me. Now I know and recognize that it was the Holy Spirit. Sometimes I felt like I would burst! I clearly remember, driving along in our car with Mum during one of these encounter moments. I shuffled forward to the edge of the back seat so I could lean through the gap in between the front seats to get Mum’s attention. “Mum, I’m just so excited to see what God has for me!”. “Oh, that’s good” she replied, as she drove and juggled probably a hundred of other things in her mind as a mother of four kids would be. By her reaction, I knew she didn’t really understand quite what was going on for me at that moment. I sat back in my seat but I kept on singing.
Childlike trust and wonder. You know, I’m now in my late forties, but sometimes I still sing that song. I still have great expectations for the future and am excited to see what God will do through my life. I want to remain in that childlike position of perfect trust whether I’m in a dark season or not.
I pray that your heart will be filled with His hope. I pray that you will be exhilarated by His goodness and promises and that He will bring you into a place of perfect trust and peace.
Let’s grow down. Childlike trust. He has good plans.
Journeying with you,
*Sandy is not her real name